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Atif Aslam – Jaane De
This song resembles my feelings of dealing with people with my true and best heart, hoping for a sense of not being alone, yet still having to move on alone without collapsing. Thinking about the missing part is exhausting and heavy because the patience it asks for isn't a small thing to swallow in each and every moment when the throat tightens. That is my capacity right now, but I am already building the capacity to hold it if it could be real anyway. Not necessarily love, but understanding, care, and a consistent flow of peace like music in a peaceful environment: with no noise, no disturbance, no interruptions, and no swings of mood here and there; just peace.
Resonance is not meant to become something.
It is meant to reveal something.
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And now when I think about the idea of asking to be chosen,
it feels like begging.
it feels like begging.
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When you finally say "I love you";
i'll want to believe it so badly.
i'll feel it everywhere—
chest tight, throat closing, trying not to cry.
i'll recognize you when you arrive.
i'll know you're the one.
and i'll still be terrified to trust it.
even when you prove it—
even when you pass every test—
even when i KNOW it's real—
something in me will keep waiting for the end.
not because i doubt you.
because my body learned: good things don't stay.
that's not fair to you.
i know.
but scarcity rewired me.
and healing takes longer than arrival.
मुझसे ज़्यादा मेरे जैसा कोई है तो है तू
फिर ना जाने दिल मेरा क्यूँ तुझको ना दे सकूँ
कुछ तो है जो दिल घबराए
कुछ तो है जो साँस ना आए
कुछ तो है जो हम होंठों से
कहते-कहते कह ना पाएँ
[SONG: Kuch To Hai]
Alex Never Dies! pinned «When you finally say "I love you"; i'll want to believe it so badly. i'll feel it everywhere— chest tight, throat closing, trying not to cry. i'll recognize you when you arrive. i'll know you're the one. and i'll still be terrified to trust it. even when…»
Alex Never Dies! pinned «This song resembles my feelings of dealing with people with my true and best heart, hoping for a sense of not being alone, yet still having to move on alone without collapsing. Thinking about the missing part is exhausting and heavy because the patience it…»
अभी मुझ में कहीं
बाक़ी थोड़ी सी है ज़िंदगी
जगी धड़कन नई
जाना ज़िंदा हूँ मैं तो अभी
If someone can stop believing in God and still whisper wishes into the void, hoping something hears them...
Maybe it's not about belief.
Maybe it's about wanting to be heard, even when no one is listening.
Then why is it unacceptable to question a place called "home" when it stops feeling like one?
Why is belief flexible, but relationships absolute?
Why does "dharma" ask me to carry lifelong debt to parents, even when what I receive is silence, suppression, or unhealed trauma passed down?
And when I say this out loud, people don't listen.
They just say, "many parents are like this."
they're not solving anything.
They're just normalizing your discomfort so they don't have to deal with it.
And maybe that's what hurts more.
Not the situation itself, but how easily it's dismissed.
That doesn't make it right.
That just makes it common.
I don't want to leave to escape pain.
I want to leave because I can't grow here.
There's a difference.
I'm not running away.
I'm trying to expand into a life that feels like mine.
Maybe one day..
I will build a place where I don't have to explain my pain to be taken seriously.
A place that finally feels like home.
Maybe it's not about belief.
Maybe it's about wanting to be heard, even when no one is listening.
Then why is it unacceptable to question a place called "home" when it stops feeling like one?
Why is belief flexible, but relationships absolute?
Why does "dharma" ask me to carry lifelong debt to parents, even when what I receive is silence, suppression, or unhealed trauma passed down?
And when I say this out loud, people don't listen.
They just say, "many parents are like this."
they're not solving anything.
They're just normalizing your discomfort so they don't have to deal with it.
And maybe that's what hurts more.
Not the situation itself, but how easily it's dismissed.
That doesn't make it right.
That just makes it common.
I don't want to leave to escape pain.
I want to leave because I can't grow here.
There's a difference.
I'm not running away.
I'm trying to expand into a life that feels like mine.
Maybe one day..
I will build a place where I don't have to explain my pain to be taken seriously.
A place that finally feels like home.
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Alex Never Dies! pinned «If someone can stop believing in God and still whisper wishes into the void, hoping something hears them... Maybe it's not about belief. Maybe it's about wanting to be heard, even when no one is listening. Then why is it unacceptable to question a place…»