[ #OffTopic / Vent ]
Every so often I'm reminded I'm not neuro typical.
I struggle so much with object permanence.
And the thing is that it's not "objects" it's tasks, it's things to do or to keep checking on, that I stress so much about them, I forget I have to do X, and when I remember I beat myself up about "how could I have forgotten", things with work, collabs, artists, stock, etc. and personal things in my life, if it was just "oh I forgot to reorder material" but it's "I forgot to order material, I need to put the wash, make lunch, finish a couple of orders to ship, feed the cats, change the water filter and I should really clean up the workshop, there's too much papers I should trash... wait what did I have to do?" And I'll forget the first parts.
I make lists, then promptly forget about them and never use them.
I set up reminders, and then they become ignored once my brain has the notification become part of the UI.
I struggle so much with this stuff and the stress it adds to my life, but that's my struggle and I'll manage, I always do.

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