I lost
I lost in stars
I lost in wonders of life
I lost in my own vision
I lost in the way i know
I lost in brightness of day
I feel no pain, no sorrow, no bad, no worries, no gilt, no good, no bad, no joy, no happiness, nothing
But it still me.
I'm always this just pretending it's not me.
I find
I find this after all good
I know this from staring
And finally i'm aware. Still
I'm lost
#review
I lost in stars
I lost in wonders of life
I lost in my own vision
I lost in the way i know
I lost in brightness of day
I feel no pain, no sorrow, no bad, no worries, no gilt, no good, no bad, no joy, no happiness, nothing
But it still me.
I'm always this just pretending it's not me.
I find
I find this after all good
I know this from staring
And finally i'm aware. Still
I'm lost
#review
It wasn't that bright anymore,
The purplish pink lines of cloud shimmering.
Earth ready to turn off into the darkest mode.
Sign made, for the lush curtain of life to fall down.
Done with the pain it brings today, but wasn't sure for tomorrow.
There's no single question mark.
Because I'm not asking when I know the answer.
#review
The purplish pink lines of cloud shimmering.
Earth ready to turn off into the darkest mode.
Sign made, for the lush curtain of life to fall down.
Done with the pain it brings today, but wasn't sure for tomorrow.
Can I survive againThere's no single question mark.
Because I'm not asking when I know the answer.
#review
*To the love of my life*
You came into my life when I was alone another time
Sowed the seed of love in my barren soul
Made me feel what love is for another time
Made me know what it feels like to be loved
Made me understand what true love is
I felt good about myself for the first time
I made sure I was apt for you in all possible ways I could
I was willing to give up everything for you expecting only one thing return
That you would stay with me
You are that one person made me alive after years of mournful love stories
For the first time I thought those who left may not deserve me
You shaped me in every way most surprisingly without your knowledge
I learnt me
I learnt love
I learnt companionship
I learnt trust
I learnt care
I learnt affection
But I am still in the process of learning you
You surprise me every day
You made sure if I am okay even if you weren't
You took care of me in a way that you wanted to be taken care of
You had love for me in various layers
You expressed yourself in various manners
You reached the bottom tip of my soul and nourished me from inside
I saw a new figure in the mirror after your arrival in my life
And now I have spoiled everything in a fraction of second
I don't want to lie saying that I did without knowing
I wanted to do it so I did
I thought it would be better for us
I thought it would always keep you near me
I thought it can make sure you are mine
Yes first time ever since I met you
I thought of myself and not you
For the first time my selfishness possessed me that I couldn't think of it's aftermath
I don't ask you to come again to me
I don't compel you to forgive me
I don't argue that what I did wasn't a big deal
But just remember
I am used to be alone
But you aren't
I am used to be abandoned
But you aren't
I am used to be sad
But you shouldn't
Because pure souls like you should be
loved, cared, kept sacred
All that I want to say is
I have had people in my heart before you
But ever since I met you
It is permanently reserved for you
You can come whenever you wanna see it again
And I am ready to apologize my entire life
For what I've done
Because
I know your love for me
You know my love for you
Come back when you feel like my heart!
#review
#lsm
#openletter
You came into my life when I was alone another time
Sowed the seed of love in my barren soul
Made me feel what love is for another time
Made me know what it feels like to be loved
Made me understand what true love is
I felt good about myself for the first time
I made sure I was apt for you in all possible ways I could
I was willing to give up everything for you expecting only one thing return
That you would stay with me
You are that one person made me alive after years of mournful love stories
For the first time I thought those who left may not deserve me
You shaped me in every way most surprisingly without your knowledge
I learnt me
I learnt love
I learnt companionship
I learnt trust
I learnt care
I learnt affection
But I am still in the process of learning you
You surprise me every day
You made sure if I am okay even if you weren't
You took care of me in a way that you wanted to be taken care of
You had love for me in various layers
You expressed yourself in various manners
You reached the bottom tip of my soul and nourished me from inside
I saw a new figure in the mirror after your arrival in my life
And now I have spoiled everything in a fraction of second
I don't want to lie saying that I did without knowing
I wanted to do it so I did
I thought it would be better for us
I thought it would always keep you near me
I thought it can make sure you are mine
Yes first time ever since I met you
I thought of myself and not you
For the first time my selfishness possessed me that I couldn't think of it's aftermath
I don't ask you to come again to me
I don't compel you to forgive me
I don't argue that what I did wasn't a big deal
But just remember
I am used to be alone
But you aren't
I am used to be abandoned
But you aren't
I am used to be sad
But you shouldn't
Because pure souls like you should be
loved, cared, kept sacred
All that I want to say is
I have had people in my heart before you
But ever since I met you
It is permanently reserved for you
You can come whenever you wanna see it again
And I am ready to apologize my entire life
For what I've done
Because
I know your love for me
You know my love for you
Come back when you feel like my heart!
#review
#lsm
#openletter
#review I think you really fall in a love. It's great letter expressed your feelings and a good start. You explored the love and it's feelings thoroughly. It looks like personal experience. Great
#_Demon__
As I saw you again after years The mere sight sent me shivers.
Yes, I was very young and naive.
But I could decipher that you weren't nice.
The way you touched me was so wrong Never imagined that it will leave a scar for lifelong.
What was so sexual in me? for god sake, I was sever 1 spet nightmares and you are the demon.
There weren't any bra straps, nor my frock was revealing Then what did I do to arouse your lustful feeling?
Family is a shelter, I have always learned But all my innocence that day you burned.
What haunts me more is the smile you still give It seems as if you are still peeping deep within.
Reading #Metoo posts, I wished to acream too But the mere imagination of aftermathi, made me withdrew.
Now I cover myself extra, I don't get too close.
For I don't want another scar in the name of "happy dose".
Now every touch is scary and every man looks like you Because even slightest of closeness brings back that view.
I miss my innocence when the world seemed like a paradise But I am born with a vagina and I have to pay the price.
✍️🏻——Pooja Dewan #PD #review
As I saw you again after years The mere sight sent me shivers.
Yes, I was very young and naive.
But I could decipher that you weren't nice.
The way you touched me was so wrong Never imagined that it will leave a scar for lifelong.
What was so sexual in me? for god sake, I was sever 1 spet nightmares and you are the demon.
There weren't any bra straps, nor my frock was revealing Then what did I do to arouse your lustful feeling?
Family is a shelter, I have always learned But all my innocence that day you burned.
What haunts me more is the smile you still give It seems as if you are still peeping deep within.
Reading #Metoo posts, I wished to acream too But the mere imagination of aftermathi, made me withdrew.
Now I cover myself extra, I don't get too close.
For I don't want another scar in the name of "happy dose".
Now every touch is scary and every man looks like you Because even slightest of closeness brings back that view.
I miss my innocence when the world seemed like a paradise But I am born with a vagina and I have to pay the price.
✍️🏻——Pooja Dewan #PD #review
It's Father's Day👨 and I wish every ones father a happy and blessed life.
This is to request every member of this worthy group to write few lines about your Dad.
#review #fathersday #Happyfathersday
This is to request every member of this worthy group to write few lines about your Dad.
#review #fathersday #Happyfathersday
The rainy night
The breezy night, dark sky glorified with it's own stars and moon making me drown in some flashbacks. The drizzling of rain drops is taking me to those days, where everything of me revolved around you, where everything seemed so pleasant and pleasing, where you and I were the only beings of my world.
Everything seemed to be perfect and easy. I really thought you were the one I was meant to be with. all you could give me was HAPPINESS happy moments happy days happy nights happy conversations happy tears... I have never even dreamt of being away from you. all i thought was we were destined to meet, we were destined to be together…
I really don't get what happened then! all of a sudden we started drifting apart. I don't know whose fault it was, maybe it was the universe'! there existed confusions in our comfortness, there was misunderstanding in our understanding. I started realizing it was not the US any more, it was YOU and I. It was a hell kinda pain I had gone through accepting the bitter reality. The real struggle was to forget our promises that we've made...the distance between you and me taught me so very much.
As the days went by, maybe it could have been a three digit number of days since we drifted... your name still remained at the top of my chat list. My diary felt difficult to breathe as it was fully loaded since I lost my human diary. My laughter vanished, the happy soul inside me flew away, my tears turned to smiles. My eyes didn't stop to search your vehicle in all that traffic I got struck. my neck never stopped to turn around whenever I crossed your street. my heart never stopped expecting you whenever i hear a calling bell sound. my brain never stopped to bring back memories whenever i hear OUR songs…
As time passes i also taught myself that days and nights come and go with or without our loved ones' gm and gn texts. i understood that we cannot always have what we want with us forever. For the first time I realized that priorities change. I felt that every forEVER has an END. i took the point that changes are inevitable in EVERYTHING. my heart felt the quote "some people can stay in our hearts but not in our lives".
Even now i'm personifying the rain from the sky as YOU, running abruptly to the land which could be luckily ME... here, while writing this, my blurry tear filled eyes expect to see you, the sinking heart still hopelessly hopes to be with you once again, but my brain silently consoles me saying "THIS TOO SHALL PASS"
#review
#lsm
#openletter
The breezy night, dark sky glorified with it's own stars and moon making me drown in some flashbacks. The drizzling of rain drops is taking me to those days, where everything of me revolved around you, where everything seemed so pleasant and pleasing, where you and I were the only beings of my world.
Everything seemed to be perfect and easy. I really thought you were the one I was meant to be with. all you could give me was HAPPINESS happy moments happy days happy nights happy conversations happy tears... I have never even dreamt of being away from you. all i thought was we were destined to meet, we were destined to be together…
I really don't get what happened then! all of a sudden we started drifting apart. I don't know whose fault it was, maybe it was the universe'! there existed confusions in our comfortness, there was misunderstanding in our understanding. I started realizing it was not the US any more, it was YOU and I. It was a hell kinda pain I had gone through accepting the bitter reality. The real struggle was to forget our promises that we've made...the distance between you and me taught me so very much.
As the days went by, maybe it could have been a three digit number of days since we drifted... your name still remained at the top of my chat list. My diary felt difficult to breathe as it was fully loaded since I lost my human diary. My laughter vanished, the happy soul inside me flew away, my tears turned to smiles. My eyes didn't stop to search your vehicle in all that traffic I got struck. my neck never stopped to turn around whenever I crossed your street. my heart never stopped expecting you whenever i hear a calling bell sound. my brain never stopped to bring back memories whenever i hear OUR songs…
As time passes i also taught myself that days and nights come and go with or without our loved ones' gm and gn texts. i understood that we cannot always have what we want with us forever. For the first time I realized that priorities change. I felt that every forEVER has an END. i took the point that changes are inevitable in EVERYTHING. my heart felt the quote "some people can stay in our hearts but not in our lives".
Even now i'm personifying the rain from the sky as YOU, running abruptly to the land which could be luckily ME... here, while writing this, my blurry tear filled eyes expect to see you, the sinking heart still hopelessly hopes to be with you once again, but my brain silently consoles me saying "THIS TOO SHALL PASS"
#review
#lsm
#openletter
#CA #review #shortStory
Listening to the rustling of the trees. Feeling the warmth of the sun. A moment a thousand words couldn’t describe. A stillness so profound she could feel the energy beneath the ground. Stirring below her feet. A vibration that traveled through her limbs and into her soul. She sighed with relief. A smile appearing at the corners of her mouth. A light within her eyes. This was perfect. She thought of how many moments wasted. Always staying busy. Having a mindset of lack. A constant want for more. How disturbing to be in that whirlwind. Never alone yet always cut away. She wondered how many others were in this realization. This dawning of a wisdom beyond age and time. She glanced at her palms as she turned them to the sky. Feeling the wind but never seeing it, all it’s wonder and beauty. A contentment filled her as she closed her mouth only letting her thoughts become her sound speaking to the energy all around and patiently waiting for its echo from the ground.
Listening to the rustling of the trees. Feeling the warmth of the sun. A moment a thousand words couldn’t describe. A stillness so profound she could feel the energy beneath the ground. Stirring below her feet. A vibration that traveled through her limbs and into her soul. She sighed with relief. A smile appearing at the corners of her mouth. A light within her eyes. This was perfect. She thought of how many moments wasted. Always staying busy. Having a mindset of lack. A constant want for more. How disturbing to be in that whirlwind. Never alone yet always cut away. She wondered how many others were in this realization. This dawning of a wisdom beyond age and time. She glanced at her palms as she turned them to the sky. Feeling the wind but never seeing it, all it’s wonder and beauty. A contentment filled her as she closed her mouth only letting her thoughts become her sound speaking to the energy all around and patiently waiting for its echo from the ground.
Day 440 of the Apocalypse [June 15, 2021]
Ready to say goodbye to my life, goodbye to all whom I loved, I sat on the rock that broke my leg. A roaring engine sound echoed through the mountains, I closed my eyes as I heard the car come closer, and I started to embrace my death.
"Hey, get in!"
The car stopped right besides me, I looked up and I saw a familiar face, it was Tom.
"Hey cunt get in, except if you are one of those Hunters as well?"
I tried to get up and 'walk' towards the car while dragging my broken leg behind me. Tom immediately took of, and told me what happened to him.
To keep a long story short he was just gaming, minding his own business, while suddenly he heard everyone outside going crazy and hunting others, it was truly some crazy sh*t.
We drove until we met the others and let them in the car so we could continue North, I still don't know how Tom knew where I was, or why he was going the same wat, well I have nothing to worry, I trust him.
We drove for a couple of days until we came across a gas station, because of course a car needs fuel. We parked a few meters further so if there were Scavenger or as Tom calls them 'Hunters' , they couldn't hear them and we could surprise them.
First things first tho, let's find some sticks to make a splint for my leg.
A few minutes passed and we got my leg in a splint and made a cane so I could walk, or more stumble forward.
Tom handed me a sniper rifle and said that I should go find a rooftop where I have a visuel on the gas station.
"Tom, why do I have to do the sniping?"
"Well, you can't really fight can you?"
I nodded and entered a building that had a visuel on the station. Tom went closer the gas station, he stopped so he could hide for the Scavengers. We both saw no-one nearby, and so Tom grabbed his Jerry cans and started filling them up.
And suddenly a group of scavengers came around the corner, all of them jumped Tom at once. I completely froze as I saw Tom killing the Scavengers from a distance. Tom grabbed his pocket knife and slashed the first one through the stomach making all of his intestines falling out, turning around stabbing someone's thigh, and following with a stab in the throat. there were still 3 guys left, and I was still completely frozen, unable to do anything. Tom was able to beat the third one to the ground, making him completely knocked out, while one of the other 2 grabbing him from behind, making him unable to move. While one of the Scavengers holds him, the other one approaches him. I dont see Tom after that, as the last one stands right in front of Tom. This is my last chance, I have to do something now, or Tom might not survive.
Tying to take aim, finger on the trigger, and BANG.
#review #YO #Fantasy #Diary
Ready to say goodbye to my life, goodbye to all whom I loved, I sat on the rock that broke my leg. A roaring engine sound echoed through the mountains, I closed my eyes as I heard the car come closer, and I started to embrace my death.
"Hey, get in!"
The car stopped right besides me, I looked up and I saw a familiar face, it was Tom.
"Hey cunt get in, except if you are one of those Hunters as well?"
I tried to get up and 'walk' towards the car while dragging my broken leg behind me. Tom immediately took of, and told me what happened to him.
To keep a long story short he was just gaming, minding his own business, while suddenly he heard everyone outside going crazy and hunting others, it was truly some crazy sh*t.
We drove until we met the others and let them in the car so we could continue North, I still don't know how Tom knew where I was, or why he was going the same wat, well I have nothing to worry, I trust him.
We drove for a couple of days until we came across a gas station, because of course a car needs fuel. We parked a few meters further so if there were Scavenger or as Tom calls them 'Hunters' , they couldn't hear them and we could surprise them.
First things first tho, let's find some sticks to make a splint for my leg.
A few minutes passed and we got my leg in a splint and made a cane so I could walk, or more stumble forward.
Tom handed me a sniper rifle and said that I should go find a rooftop where I have a visuel on the gas station.
"Tom, why do I have to do the sniping?"
"Well, you can't really fight can you?"
I nodded and entered a building that had a visuel on the station. Tom went closer the gas station, he stopped so he could hide for the Scavengers. We both saw no-one nearby, and so Tom grabbed his Jerry cans and started filling them up.
And suddenly a group of scavengers came around the corner, all of them jumped Tom at once. I completely froze as I saw Tom killing the Scavengers from a distance. Tom grabbed his pocket knife and slashed the first one through the stomach making all of his intestines falling out, turning around stabbing someone's thigh, and following with a stab in the throat. there were still 3 guys left, and I was still completely frozen, unable to do anything. Tom was able to beat the third one to the ground, making him completely knocked out, while one of the other 2 grabbing him from behind, making him unable to move. While one of the Scavengers holds him, the other one approaches him. I dont see Tom after that, as the last one stands right in front of Tom. This is my last chance, I have to do something now, or Tom might not survive.
Tying to take aim, finger on the trigger, and BANG.
#review #YO #Fantasy #Diary
In a world where emojis hold more meaning than words,
I choose to stay silent.
In a world where a book is rated by it's prologue and epilogue rather than it's journey,
I choose to surrender my pen.
In a world where whitewashed is the new bright,
I choose to negotiate with the darkness.
In a world where one wants to get ahead by pushing others,
I choose to stay behind and wait to greet the slow yet steady destruction on way .
~TheSilentWriter💜
#review #TSW #poetry
I choose to stay silent.
In a world where a book is rated by it's prologue and epilogue rather than it's journey,
I choose to surrender my pen.
In a world where whitewashed is the new bright,
I choose to negotiate with the darkness.
In a world where one wants to get ahead by pushing others,
I choose to stay behind and wait to greet the slow yet steady destruction on way .
~TheSilentWriter💜
#review #TSW #poetry
#review #CA #random
Your smile broke into my soul. This is a feeling I have never known. A warmth that spreads to my fingers and toes. A kindness seen through someone else’s eyes. A world apart and yet so close. My mind is connected to yours. We are different and yet we are the same. You balance my weakness. I balance your strength. Some call this fate.
Your smile broke into my soul. This is a feeling I have never known. A warmth that spreads to my fingers and toes. A kindness seen through someone else’s eyes. A world apart and yet so close. My mind is connected to yours. We are different and yet we are the same. You balance my weakness. I balance your strength. Some call this fate.
Stay with the wind
#Abhijit #review
Stay with the winds and you shall see the birds.
You shall see the innumerable flowers of different kinds,
Which blossoms as the aspirations of many fly high,
While some that cannot blossom wither as the winds sucks all of its fragrance.
Stay with the wind to witness the hardships of the mountains,
As the river tears through its crevices.
Stay with the winds to adore the tiny turtles at the beach,
Walking towards there sea.
Stay with the wind to watch the escape of the fish,
From the beak of a kingfisher.
Stay with the wind to gaze upon the mighty deserts,
To watch the unraveled power of the seasons.
But soon you shall notice the humans,
You shall see them fight.
You shall see the fire of the burned corpses,
Seeing that you shall fall from your flight.
#Abhijit #review
Stay with the winds and you shall see the birds.
You shall see the innumerable flowers of different kinds,
Which blossoms as the aspirations of many fly high,
While some that cannot blossom wither as the winds sucks all of its fragrance.
Stay with the wind to witness the hardships of the mountains,
As the river tears through its crevices.
Stay with the winds to adore the tiny turtles at the beach,
Walking towards there sea.
Stay with the wind to watch the escape of the fish,
From the beak of a kingfisher.
Stay with the wind to gaze upon the mighty deserts,
To watch the unraveled power of the seasons.
But soon you shall notice the humans,
You shall see them fight.
You shall see the fire of the burned corpses,
Seeing that you shall fall from your flight.
In the morning rays of Sunshine
I opened my eyes and saw the happiness of tomorrow
My words were intertwined in my tongue and
I started to speak languages I don't understand but
one thing for sure they were filled with joy
I stood on top of a mountain and
I declared the happiness that reigns within my soul that no one can take away from me and
I smiled at the presence of nature's sunshine staring at my face smiling, giving me all those feels that make me chirp like birds on a winter's morning
I went by the river I saw peace distilling itself in my soul I saw joy coming in and clothing itself with the hairs on my skin
I heard the river flow and it gave me Assurance that tomorrow will cruise better than those cruise ships
I heard the laughter of children nearby that reminded me that youth doesn't last forever but enjoy it and embrace it While it still embraces you
#Nosii
#review
I opened my eyes and saw the happiness of tomorrow
My words were intertwined in my tongue and
I started to speak languages I don't understand but
one thing for sure they were filled with joy
I stood on top of a mountain and
I declared the happiness that reigns within my soul that no one can take away from me and
I smiled at the presence of nature's sunshine staring at my face smiling, giving me all those feels that make me chirp like birds on a winter's morning
I went by the river I saw peace distilling itself in my soul I saw joy coming in and clothing itself with the hairs on my skin
I heard the river flow and it gave me Assurance that tomorrow will cruise better than those cruise ships
I heard the laughter of children nearby that reminded me that youth doesn't last forever but enjoy it and embrace it While it still embraces you
#Nosii
#review
Hi Maestros i am in love with poetry, but whenever I start to write somthing of my own, my thoughts start to fumble, I often have words that stumble and get so much crushed under pressure and finally I crumble.
strength leaves my body that is necessary to hold a pen, my concious starts scolding, you are fucking old, if not now, then when?
I pick my courage and lock it inside my vault of chest, like a little chicken is protected by its mama hen.
I believe you maestros have ability, to hunt your thoughts and words, like a shark
Can you please lent some advise for a little puppy who really wants to bark.
#review #critically
#khaahk
strength leaves my body that is necessary to hold a pen, my concious starts scolding, you are fucking old, if not now, then when?
I pick my courage and lock it inside my vault of chest, like a little chicken is protected by its mama hen.
I believe you maestros have ability, to hunt your thoughts and words, like a shark
Can you please lent some advise for a little puppy who really wants to bark.
#review #critically
#khaahk
Sleep:
You sleep and dream
I can’t sleep because of dreams
Dreams are that different
Home:
I walk alone, tired
Want to go home badly
Found you, mi casa
Toys:
They share feelings with you
Caress your crying head, hold your smiley face
But those toys can only smile
Isolation:
‘A monster!’, they say
Isolated by everyone, I cry alone
Loneliness, the real demon
Books:
They say talk more, socialize
You will need those for better life
I hold a book and smile
Ice cream:
Icy cold, creamy smooth
Indeed, the opposites attract it seems
That’s what’s love I see.
There are some haiku poems I wrote for my college competition.
Do tell me if anything needs to be improved~
#review
You sleep and dream
I can’t sleep because of dreams
Dreams are that different
Home:
I walk alone, tired
Want to go home badly
Found you, mi casa
Toys:
They share feelings with you
Caress your crying head, hold your smiley face
But those toys can only smile
Isolation:
‘A monster!’, they say
Isolated by everyone, I cry alone
Loneliness, the real demon
Books:
They say talk more, socialize
You will need those for better life
I hold a book and smile
Ice cream:
Icy cold, creamy smooth
Indeed, the opposites attract it seems
That’s what’s love I see.
There are some haiku poems I wrote for my college competition.
Do tell me if anything needs to be improved~
#review
<<<UNTITLED>>>
Submerging my soul in cavernous despondency,
I was biding my time to abscond from its clenches.
Handling in hand a handful of handy agates,
Wanted to stoop my palmar flexion creases;
Since the deluge of dejections has left my pneuma withered,
Chronometeringly I used to watch the Venus at dusk.
Discerning the uncanny transformation of botolinum into lugduname;
For I cognized that everything which betides has a purpose,
Just like the metaphor exercised here to delineate my metamorphosis.
Cutting to the chase lonely beside the seashore holding few agates sedentary,
Thought of tossing them into the Moana.
Although pleased with the bout ripples somehow,
I'm waiting for the bombora to wallop again!
Unknown whether time has mended my spirit,
Or the clock teached me how to reside in afflictions!
#review #ag #poetry
Submerging my soul in cavernous despondency,
I was biding my time to abscond from its clenches.
Handling in hand a handful of handy agates,
Wanted to stoop my palmar flexion creases;
Since the deluge of dejections has left my pneuma withered,
Chronometeringly I used to watch the Venus at dusk.
Discerning the uncanny transformation of botolinum into lugduname;
For I cognized that everything which betides has a purpose,
Just like the metaphor exercised here to delineate my metamorphosis.
Cutting to the chase lonely beside the seashore holding few agates sedentary,
Thought of tossing them into the Moana.
Although pleased with the bout ripples somehow,
I'm waiting for the bombora to wallop again!
Unknown whether time has mended my spirit,
Or the clock teached me how to reside in afflictions!
#review #ag #poetry
#Review #CA#ShortStory
Her heart skipped a beat with knowing that this was the one place where she was pushed. This was a place of constant learning. A place she knew no matter what she could spread her wings. She could continue to grow and transform and be whatever it is that was needed in that moment.
Her heart skipped a beat with knowing that this was the one place where she was pushed. This was a place of constant learning. A place she knew no matter what she could spread her wings. She could continue to grow and transform and be whatever it is that was needed in that moment.
Steven loved a girl, but the girl did not. Steven knew this. Steven wanted to stop generating this enormous feelings for her. So, Steven decided to go away from her life, never to return back. But on her birthday, he could not resist wishing her, so he came back to wish her. He wished. But the girl responded silence.
He was already broken, and now he was pulverised into dust. He wept into a pillow till his eyes got swollen to the extent that no more tears could pass through the bulged skin around the eyes. He coughed, he gagged several times. After a while he looked into a mirror but to his surprise there was no reflection of his image appeared on the mirror.
He had turned into nothing..
All distressed and destroyed, he went out in open, and he looked up towards the sky and searched as if someone is up there, who was witnessing his plight. He gazed up for a while and then he covered his swollen eyes with his palms. And sat on his folded knees, he leaned forward to rest his face onto his knees now his palms were between his face and the knee. And he was sitting in the middle of his terrace.
There was a complete silence in his pausture, there was no apparent movement in his body for quite some time. He was trying to hold his breath, probably trying to suffocate himself to death. But little did he know, reflexes of his body kicked in and he had to exhale violently. It was so violent as if a volcano had erupted and with it came out the lava of anxiety, hatred, anger and embarrassment. At this very moment, for just few seconds, he had this moment of clarity.
His feelings were powerful and so were his emotions. He was having this intense emotions for the first time and he could not handle them well. And this had made him feel that miserable.
He brought a little change in his perpective now, what actually happened was, he faced a rejection. The girl did not have those emotions and feelings. So, she did not respond the way he wanted. Though, It would have been surreal if she had. He sighed with a chuckle.
He had reasoned and had resolved.
He looked up again, and thanked someone up there and prayed for wellness and happiness for her.
With this new insight a joy that had blossomed in his heart, warmed up his whole body. He started feeling much lighter from that moment. He rushed into his room and stood before the mirror. In mirror appeared a bigger and a better man than what he had seen last, before he decided to come back and wish this girl birthday.
Steven decided to let her live in her own happy world and let this story to rest on a warm and cozy full stop.
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He was already broken, and now he was pulverised into dust. He wept into a pillow till his eyes got swollen to the extent that no more tears could pass through the bulged skin around the eyes. He coughed, he gagged several times. After a while he looked into a mirror but to his surprise there was no reflection of his image appeared on the mirror.
He had turned into nothing..
All distressed and destroyed, he went out in open, and he looked up towards the sky and searched as if someone is up there, who was witnessing his plight. He gazed up for a while and then he covered his swollen eyes with his palms. And sat on his folded knees, he leaned forward to rest his face onto his knees now his palms were between his face and the knee. And he was sitting in the middle of his terrace.
There was a complete silence in his pausture, there was no apparent movement in his body for quite some time. He was trying to hold his breath, probably trying to suffocate himself to death. But little did he know, reflexes of his body kicked in and he had to exhale violently. It was so violent as if a volcano had erupted and with it came out the lava of anxiety, hatred, anger and embarrassment. At this very moment, for just few seconds, he had this moment of clarity.
His feelings were powerful and so were his emotions. He was having this intense emotions for the first time and he could not handle them well. And this had made him feel that miserable.
He brought a little change in his perpective now, what actually happened was, he faced a rejection. The girl did not have those emotions and feelings. So, she did not respond the way he wanted. Though, It would have been surreal if she had. He sighed with a chuckle.
He had reasoned and had resolved.
He looked up again, and thanked someone up there and prayed for wellness and happiness for her.
With this new insight a joy that had blossomed in his heart, warmed up his whole body. He started feeling much lighter from that moment. He rushed into his room and stood before the mirror. In mirror appeared a bigger and a better man than what he had seen last, before he decided to come back and wish this girl birthday.
Steven decided to let her live in her own happy world and let this story to rest on a warm and cozy full stop.
#review
#khaahk
#excerpt
#epiphanyofsteve