Tears are beautiful

I see it and it's all blurry. It's so cold and painful. It is loaded with lots of memories. Some you may cherish and many you wish to erase.

I see my father taking me around the corner of the street in my bicycle and I couldn't recognize my younger self. I never knew it was a happy moment because I see myself crying out of fear of falling, but now I'm crying that I didn't have a chance to thank him for whatever he was.

I see my return journey to my field posting in the army. I open my bag and there lies a packet of sandwich made by mom that I never asked for. I remember her tears when I reached home to surprise her and the same tears when I left home in an emergency recall. I always thought I shouldn't react by crying in front of her but this packet of sandwich made me cry as I never knew I wouldn't come back to thank her.

I see my wife signing the divorce papers in front of me and all I see is those 15 years of friendship from college which deserve some tears as a token. I asked her a chance to revive this relationship and she blamed my tears for being a fake tool to keep her moving forward in her life. I never knew that tears were perceived in other way as well.

Atlast, I have tears for myself when the enemy fired a bullet that pierced my chest. I see myself drowning into the world of tears and it is beautiful, knowing that my country would be safe.

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 "I swear to God
That the Rambling of
An approaching trains
Reminds me of
What we're used to be,
On evening newspapers
I still look to find
Train accidents
To comprehend
What's left in me now,
Finding my kind of love
Has been nothing,
More than the jotting down
My favourite ways of dying,
My diary knows it all,
Evenings too;
I grew very fond of evenings,
Lately, It has been all the goodbyes,
You never said"

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"and when I painted that knuckle, I thought of the wall, the bruises of my father's hand and the silence my mother had afterwards, of course is just a painting but there is something uneasy about red mixing with a beige"

-Nilesh Tiwari (excerpts from a book I never dared to write)

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Let it go
Give me back my right to live! Let my bandisho get away from these Kanun books! Let me go open at least once! Suppose I return my right to live on the right side! Show me your helplessness too! Let me take my sinking boat across the ocean of unearthly hopes! Said how much I told my husband let me go once and twice.            #review

Incomplete desire
January is shrinking
Standing on the frame
February with exams
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I think it happens with everybody who are living their life, by living their life I mean that, they have a home to live in, sufficient food to eat, clothes to wear, near by friends to talk and enjoy, family members to love and get loved but at some point of time we realise that, we still miss something. Something which can create fire in you, something which can drive you miles but still you don't feel tired, something which makes you so optimistic that you can overcome any situation, something which can transform you in a better way, something which makes you feel so good that you can convert bad, something which makes your life euphoric. I have never encountered this something but I some how know that I miss this something.

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Good morning! 😊

I have lost my sleep to you,
But you've made me win,
eyes that dream
longer and brighter.

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Torn

Of course you'll be torn.

When each of your mind, heart and body is pulling your soul into a different direction.

Of course there will be agony.

When you're shredded into tiny fragments, each loses its way in the dust.

Of course there will be tears.

When the cup is filled with sorrows that flooded your path.

Of course, my dear, you'll be broken.

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Artist

A lifetime experience expressed in a day,
an ability that exist in those with grey.

From harmless face that gets redrawn,
to fully grown the world depends upon.

A mastery of time being exposed by sun,
used by it to cause people to return.

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Inferno

She exults her wild zeal with no regrets. For she is a wild flower permeating sorrows with her vehement aroma.
She is flawed. She is fierce.
A vigorous exuberance circle her soul and her stimulating eyes mirrors innocence.
She is a blazing inferno burning with composure.

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It was when the moon cried.
When the earth cracked.

When the ocean dried.
When the light petered.

It was when you were born.

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Waves

His senses were numb,
eyes trembled as they shone,
waves cradled him as the night fell,
In the morning he was gone.

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Hey !
I miss you
You keep running in my mind all the time ,
Even if we are not together ,
I can't think of anyone else .
Even if you don't love me now ,
For me it will always be you .
I will never loose hope because
Whatever we had in these years is meant to be forever .
I don't understand how we lost it ,
But I do believe it will happen all over again and this time we will end up having everything we wished for .
I miss 'us'..❤️
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All these conflicts, clash of ideologies, vendettas, war and bloodshed are denouements of the detrimental desire to attain political power, throughout the history of mankind. Ideology of an individual or a small group of rigid mineded people permeates to masses, making them believe in an idea that isn't there's, but still they turn off their 'lights' and move ahead into darkness, under the shadow of their leaders.
We don't want demagogues who try to turn our minds toward them and against each other.
We don't want preachers, we can preach our own selves.

LIFE TOGETHER

Our road's not smooth,
We'll have ups and downs.
We'll be together in our youth,
Creating memories
we can cherish,
years around.

We'll find the universe there, unchanged,
in each other's eyes,
in adolescence and
in the autumn of life.


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the bruises

the heckling of yours, father
the hitting of yours, father
the hard kicked on my mother's face
left bruises on her face father.
And the cries of her
and the abusive words of yours
left bruises on my mind .
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There were days
When you wore your lips
Like a ripen cherry
And I couldn't get mine off them,
Nowadays, the sun is plain white
The evenings are quiet
And whiskey is just a water,
At night
My room becomes a sea
That I would've walked out and saved myself
But rather I am wondering if I have
What it takes to have gills,
And if even that's worth it or not,
I've never caught a detonated bomb
But I imagine it to be like
Getting a text from you at 3 am saying
You love me
Of late, I convinced my knuckles that they're petals
And they fall off before time,
I forgave you before you even thought of apologizing.
That's what it takes to be a man.

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Contentment is what I sought for
Commitment is what i yearned for
Fulfillment is all what needed
A vague fantasy
A moment in time
Came to reality
Love, yes love it was
How I didn't know
A moment of bliss
A moment in time
Now fading away into nothingness
Like it didn't exist before
Like just a dream
Oh, how I wish I knew
I was doomed from the start
Heartbreak's
Left right Center
Love wasn't
Isn't
my portion
As they say
Beggars would ride
If the horses were wishes

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"Write right. Write" they said
Bleed the pen. Just write. A just rite to get the right shade of red
Read red, red words read I, red words shed I
Down my cheek to colour her red eye
I eye. Aye, i eye her red eyes: eyes that lie
About her story, eyes of I, eyes that die
Dye! Dye or die! Dye the letters or die trying
To come up with a better dye to paint my lying
Lying. Lying on the bed of lies i am laying lies a show
Sprayed against my paper, lying against the white are lies you know
"Oh no! Know, no knows no no!" I tell but fail
I scream my disagreement, "No". "Know no" i wail
Wail and wail again. Wale my papers, whale on my pens for something better
Paining my fingers to make wilts in the shape of a letter
Later maybe later, i will write her a letter
A letter to let her out... let me out....
Yet i stay silent forever
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The bird always wanted to fly to distant places. It always beat up itself against the cage that it was put in. One could hear it sing the song of life. As days progressed the bird was getting tired. Tired of singing the song and wished to take a flight. So it thought of stopping for a while. And when it stopped, the cage it was in died and the heart in the wish of freedom... Ended something that it had began. #review #everyone

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I can't die nor sleep

Right now death sounds
Like it should be my destination
Yes we'all gonna die
But i want it to happen now
I'm finished and I'm giving up,
Don't judge me,
I've been judging myself and it's enough
Everything is just nothing
Without who are actually need,
Unfortunately I'm not to be in the picture now,
Sadly i can't understand anything
But my mind keeps reminding me
That death could be better,
I mean after this life, i might not feel
Pain will no longer have dominion over me
I will set myself free
Cause I'm ceasing to function in this life,
I want to know what it feels like
Not to feel,
It's a bit contradiction but to me
It makes sense,
Anyone in my shoes would agree
Though i can't believe anyone else
Deserves the kind of discomfort in my heart,
I don't know if it's possible,
Unfortunately I'm not suicidal
Otherwise i would have died a few minutes ago,
As i walked on the road
My only wish was to bump on a car
And my life to end just right there,
But not even a bicycle passed there
Why can't i die?
If I'm not to die then can i sleep for a while,
Just not to think of my dilemmas
Sadly i can't sleep either
What is wrong with me????

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