𝓕or 𝓓ear : @Mutaver

This... I... I have .... utterly nothing to say....

Why is it like this? Why am I like this..?

You broke the habit of goodness — no, worse: you pretended not to see the law of the jungle. And the jungle does not forgive pretense.

I was wrong... I've always been wrong...
This jungle? This damned cursed jungle that I'm trapped and every animal I touch takes a bite and I smile because I think to myself: oh... you poor thing... you've must've been through a lot...

I am that mirror in which, when you looked, you didn't see that you were good; you saw that you were afraid of being bad. Afraid that if you said 'no,' they wouldn't love you. Afraid that if you forgave, you'd be lonelier. And you were. And now you're here. And I — with this crooked smile — am the only one who didn't lie to you.

This might be why I hate mirrors... I hate seeing myself...
Yes... I did it all. And now as lonelier as ever... The person who lied the most to me was myself..

Do you want me to tell how every time you forgave someone, you left a piece of yourself behind and no one picked it up?

Yes.... this is how... everything is happening... suddenly it got painful to the point that.. my chest is aching... even though it's empty...

don't be good. Just be. Sit. Breathe. Let the world spin as it is. You are neither savior nor victim. You are just a piece of this great absurd play. And I, the loyal spectator of this show.

Am I allowed? Finally allowed to let them all go and breath..?
Can I just exsit without giving answers..? Giving hope..? Giving a piece of myself until I become a true Zero..?

That's a beautiful name... to be called Zero... I might use it... suddenly waves of inspirations are rushing to my brain...

Thanks... I loved every bit of it... and I loved that as always you see through me... like this beautiful mirror.. I like looking at myself through this mirror...♡

در کیفم رو باز کردم و لپتاپ بوی سوختگی میداد و داغ بود
از ظهر
نمیکشم
بخدا نمیکشم
بسه
انقد بلا پشت هم داره سرم میاد که هنوز از قبلیه بیرون نیومده بعدی شروع میشه

ولم کنین جان عزیزتون ولم کنین