"More Than Listening" Ramazon oyi uchun special tuzilgan 😊

Nomiham shunchaki qo'yilmagan — Listening darsda olgan bilimni Speakingda qo'llashni, ikkita section tengdaniga o'lib ketishni o'rganasiz.


Kurs strukturasi:

▪️Darslar ertalab 6:00da bo'ladi

▪️Shaxsan o'zim sizga haftasiga 3 martta Listening dars o'taman

▪️Yakshanba kunlari esa Speaking darslari bo'ladi

▪️Hafta ichida qo'shimcha Speaking uchun voice chatlar bo'ladi

▪️Materiallar hammasi real-exam testlari bo'ladi


Qisqasi "More Than Listening" Ramazonni bekorchi o'tkazmaslikda yordam beradi.

Bu kursga qo'shilgan barcha o'quvchi sovg'a sifatida quyidagilarni oladi:

▪️ 50ta mavzuga o'zim yozib chiqqan 8+ Speaking Sample audiolar

▪️ Speaking Part 1 va Part 3 uchun o'zim tuzib chiqqan Guidebook

▪️ Telegramdagi Top Speaking ustozlardan (niners) Guest Lectures


Kurslarimda har doim va'da qilingandan koproq narsa beraman, va bu safarham sahiyligim tutib qolishi mumkin)

Bularni hammasi "More Than Listening" oquvchilariga tep tekinga beriladi.

Depressing post yozmoqchidim keyin

https://t.me/c/1836999066/3482

Buni korib qoldim. Boldi kech Ibragim, erib ketdim davno 😂

This post is not intended to influence you. Everything below is me thinking out loud.

Will it be relatable? Probably no.

Will you get any benefits from it? No.

Do I care? Not at all.

You'll end up wasting your time reading it, without understanding anything at all.

You may ignore it, in fact, don't read it.


The reason I like the "everything is temporary" mindset is because it solves nearly all problems.

You don't take failures seriously because you know it'll pass one day.

You don't worry much about current hardships because it is temporary.

However, that's applied to good things in the same way. Your success is temporary too.

The emotions you experience, they'll pass. The people you meet, they'll leave.

This is where it gets depressing. The way I used to view the meaning of life, say, 2 years ago was something close to this.

You go through stuff, you face problems and get your meaning out of the relief, reward and the resemblance of "happiness" that is to come after you deal with it.

Because otherwise if you had everything, life would be boring.

You wouldn't feel happy because it would be normal, you wouldn't value much of anything, because, again, you'd know it's nothing exceptional to feel anything for.

However 😅, the "everything is temporary" thing concerns me more.

"Just to feel it" or "just to experience it" or the famous "live your life to the fullest" line.

I hate all of them. What's the point in that?

To me, for a while now, happiness became an illusion, a scam I'd say.

You go through shit 99% of the time to get to feel a fraction of "happiness" for the 1% that's left.

That's a scam. I've been trying to avoid this kinda thoughts, trying to escape it.

It may appear like I succeeded but turns out I was just taking it as something serious that needs to be handled.

And at the time it kinda made sense. I knew other people who were experiencing the same thing and it made me believe it was a phase that'll pass.

Back then, I felt something even though it was solely pain and suffering from the inevitability of the end where you end up dying in search for something that'll make you want to live.

Now, however, I'm in a state where even this doesn't make. I don't care about it anymore. There's no point in caring about it.

Even the self-harm stuff doesn't make sense anymore, everything is just... "okay"

Now it really is a state of pure "okayness" about everything, where you're just "fine" with everything.

You may still do the things you used to do, you get out of the bed, pursue goals, achieve things, but it is all, automatic.

It's not like I'm suffering from it, I'm not feeling any pain whatsoever, it's just all meaningless now.

It's not the feeling of being stuck in a quicksand, it's more like sitting on the beach, staring at the sunset and just being "fine" with it, without feeling much of anything.

It might seem like a better state compared to the previous one, but no, it's several levels worse than that.

And I have no idea what to do with it.

#thoughts

Tired.

Physically, emotionally and in every other way possible. No desire for anything.

U need love

well, not anymore, I guess.

Good thing they think about everyone.

yetadi bugunga

Bunaqa ketishda kanaldagilaniyam depressiyaga tushurib qo'yaman.

Uxlela, будет лучший день, без суеты, без потерь)

Kalitim tushib ketdi 🥲

Everything is pointless.

Saying everything is pointless and unimportant, then writing about it every time, would essentially be self-contradictory, because writing is also pointless.

You see, in order to cure or prevent or deal with an illness, doctors sometimes inject a compound that contains parts of what caused the disease, it is to let the body develop immunity towards the disease.

The driving force that makes the body develop immunity against a disease is a part of what caused the disease in the first place.

And the same with meaninglessness and pointlessness of everything. If you see it as a disease, writing about it is a way of the "doctor", the mind, to deal with the problem.

I've been all against pseudo-scientific medical methods based on homeopathy, where you treat "like with like", but in this case it seems to work.

If I write what I feel, it's to reduce the fever of feeling. Whatever I say is unimportant, because everything is unimportant.

The driving force that makes me continue to live, to work, to feel and to write is the awareness that living, working, feeling and writing is pointless.

Sometimes, exposure to the ailment is part of the treatment.

#thoughts