Im having an instinct that a great trial is waiting for me


May Allah make it easy for me and grant me patience!

Sometimes we forget that Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala doesn't need our ibadah. He is Al-Ghani, the One free of all need, and we are the ones who need Him. Our salah, our sujood, our dhikr, our obedience, none of it adds to His عظَمة, and our shortcomings take nothing away from Him. He is عظِيم regardless of whether we worship Him or not.
Allah says: ﴿وَيَسْتَخْلِفْ رَبِّي قَوْمًا غَيْرَكُمْ وَلَا تَضُرُّونَهُ شَيْئًا﴾

"And my Lord will replace you with another people, and you cannot harm Him at all."
So don't ever think that Allah needs you to worship Him. Rather, you need Him in every breath, every moment, and every step you take. He is not in need of our obedience, yet out of His mercy, He opens the doors of worship for us, allows us to draw closer to Him, and gives us the opportunity to earn His pleasure. SubhanAllah, even our ability to worship Him is a blessing from Him. May Allah never let us become heedless of how much we need Him, and may He make us among those who worship Him sincerely, out of love, gratitude, and humility.