sincerely, me.

"We carry a lot of our feelings, then we sleep.”

She fight her own silent battles every night and for her she is brave enough to handle the world. But if you look closer enough to see her vulnerabilities you will realized that she can't handle herself. She is worthy to be love by someone that will constantly remind her that she is a warrior and a blessing combined in one person. She needs to be loved by someone who will look at her the way she look at the sunsets. Someone that will tell her the truth no matter how cold, cruel, or hard it is to hear. Someone that will make her smile on the days that she find it hard to be happy. She deserve someone that will remind her that she don't deserve the world because she deserve the entire universe.

—Balt

Sometimes, pain can no longer be tolerable. We break in each poke, we bleed in each trigger, we cry in each pain, yet we hold on in every verge of letting go. We cross the boarders of our patience, like elastic band we kept on extending it towards the ends of our doubts. We give more than what we should, and take less than what we deserve.

We fight to hold on to little hopes even if people tell us that it's high time to let go. We hope for better tomorrows even if storms are coming after storms. We fix the way we see that someone who makes our love and care frustrated. We are labelled as 'no longer sane' for holding on to hopeless things but—
I guess at some point, we choose to understand even when we are too broken, because we want to save that person from being remembered as a bad memory in our entire existence.

Perhaps we fight in order to end with good memories. Perhaps we hold on to save that person from our own judgement. Perhaps we don't want to end with hatred after the love, so when the time comes that we already have the courage to walk away, when the time comes that we are ready to stab our own heart with the truth that some things had to end tragically, we would take our heavy steps with good memories, full of acceptance, and peace.

—𝓥𝓮𝓲𝓵𝓮𝓭 𝓟𝓸𝓮𝓽 | to let go with good memories

We hurt ourselves by staying when letting go was the proper choice. I want to remind you that if it's destroying you and making you question your worth, it's not worth staying for, whether it's romantic relationships, friendships, work, routines, or patterns that make you feel less of a person. Go and move towards the blessings you hinder by allowing yourself to walk away from things and situations that suffocate you and have caused your mental health to decline.
Happiness is a choice so you have to move forward because it requires effort to become the version you want to be.

— Balt

“I’m strong, but I am tired. Tired of always having to be the strong one. Tired of always having to do the right thing..”

i wish i have a balcony overlook to this view every night.♡⁩

Sometimes, I feel like my chest will explode out of the pain that I've been enduring for so long. I keep fighting each day, hoping that better days are coming. I keep telling myself that this pain will disappear and I will be okay again someday. But the truth is, a part of me is already tired of waiting for my pain to end. I am silently telling myself that maybe this pain will never disappear and that I must learn to live with it. I'm already tired of telling lies to myself— saying that tomorrow will be a better day but still ending up feeling miserable and lonely.

It's hard to go on with my life, pretending that everything is okay. I sometimes wish I could give up, but I know that I should have courage in everything that I'm going through right now. But it's hard to think about positive things in life when I honestly feel like everything in my life is falling apart. It's hard when I feel like I no longer have the will to face the world every day.

— Shiori X

Life is like a book 📚
If you don't dare to open the next sheet.
Then you never know what story is next.

“ You can say you're fine, but eyes never lie.”

To my old self,

I'm sorry for allowing people to hurt you so many times. I'm sorry for all the wrong decisions that you've made because you were not wise enough before. I hope you'll learn to forgive yourself someday. I hope you'll heal from all your trauma. And I hope you've learned from all the mistakes that you've made in your past.

Someday, I hope you'll learn to love yourself after all the heartbreaks that you've been through. I know sometimes it's hard to forget the painful things that happened to you, but it takes time to heal. I hope one day you'll learn to find your worth again. You were too hard on yourself and you forgot that you are worth it too. One day, I hope you find the happiness that you always deserve.

I want you to know that your past mistakes and traumas doesn't define who you are. You are more than your wounds and scars. You are more than the number of your heartbreaks. And I hope you always remember that I am so proud of you for being brave enough to stay alive. You are loved, and you are always enough.

— Shiori X

"Don't touch my tiredness, your hands are no longer trusted."

Dearest soul,

I hope you won't exhaust you by explaining yourself to others all the time. Sometimes we just need to leave things by how people see them, because we don't have control over what they think of us. They don't have any slightest idea of our struggles.

I hope that even when I don't remind, you would remember that I'm here, for us, fighting with you through my du'ās. I hope that you wouldn't forget that you are not alone. I hope that even when the world can't understand you, I am here, ready to understand you even when you are yet to narrate your story.

Know that my arms are open for you. My words are ready to console you. My fingers are ready to wipe your tears. I'd embrace your chaos. I'd overlook your flaws. To me, you're a beautiful soul, and you cannot change my mind.

— Veiled Poet

“I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself.”

~Franz Kafka, The Metamorphosis

Yes strong people need to be reminded they're loved.
The ones that laugh all the time can be the ones crying themselves to sleep.
The ones that always throw good comments to make people around them feel good. They sometimes need to hear them about themselves too.
The people who show up in the hardest moments need to have people around them in those moments too.

You never know what a positive person may pass through to appear like that.
So be kind.

Allāh ﷻ knows your soul is tired. He knows you find it hard to accept what's going on. He knows you've been asking him and praying hard. He knows you're confused and in need of comfort but he also knows what's best for you. He will always take you in that direction. Trust him.

You don't always have to understand me everyday or read every intricate detail in my words and actions.

There are just some days that I am meant to be messy. chaotic. And complicated that even myself couldn't hold.

The most important thing for me is to make it through the day. And call it a day of surviving 🥀

—Jaeka

You Are Valuable ⭐

You will never know how Valuable you are until you meet a person who show you how much he loves you.

You are Valuable.
Please remember that!

Be patient.
For he shall be here. One day.

Be hopeful.
For he will bring you a new hope. One day.

Be happy.
For he will confess to you.
One day.

Believe and a wish shall come true. One day.
Yeah. One day.
⭐

-Dara Ly