Something within me has perished... yet the real anguish is not knowing what?!
I find myself unable to even begin to search for it.
There's a profound sense of loss...
a depletion of the spirit, I'm acutely aware of a chasm opening up inside
yet... I remain blind to what I have truly....lost.

It doesn’t happen all the time, but sometimes I can take my mind off my pain.
It feels like being stuck in a deep hole, where you suddenly see a bit of light... and you just hold onto it to keep moving forward.