I keep trying to make appearance of a smart hooman who can manage a few projects at the same time and learn a lot of new stuff in a short time.
I mostly succeed in these endeavours. Does it cost me a lot of energy? Yes. Do I like my new job? Also yes. Do I like that I need to analyse if this job worth this energy? No.

I am what hostile environment and constan dealing with ADHD made me

Also don't really compatible with "steel" type in my experience, rather the opposite. I strive to regain my bubbly shape, because there is a feeling of these cut off parts that turned me into stone

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